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May 08 I dreamed a dreamThere was a time when men were kind When their voices were soft And their words inviting There was a time when love was blind And the world was a song And the song was exciting There was a time Then it all went wrong I dreamed a dream in time gone by When hope was high And life worth living I dreamed that love would never die I dreamed that God would be forgiving Then I was young and unafraid And dreams were made and used and wasted There was no ransom to be paid No song unsung, no wine untasted But the tigers come at night With their voices soft as thunder As they tear your hope apart And they turn your dream to shame He slept a summer by my side He filled my days with endless wonder He took my childhood in his stride But he was gone when autumn came And still I dream he'll come to me That we will live the years together But there are dreams that cannot be And there are storms we cannot weather I had a dream my life would be So different from this hell I'm living So different now from what it seemed Now life has killed the dream I dreamed. April 28 The HolidayWhy am l attracted to a person l know isn't good?
l happen to know the answer to this. Because you're hoping you're wrong, and every time she does something that tells you she's no good, you ignore it, and every time she comes through and surprises you, she wins you over and you lose that argument with yourself that she's not for you. ……
What I'm trying to say is I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. How it can actually ache in places that you didn't know you had inside you. It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get or gyms you join or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with girlfriends. You still go to bed every night going over every detail, and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell, for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy? And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that however long 'all that' may be you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted that will eventually begin to fade. April 26 But Where Are You"I guarantee that we'll have tough times.
I guarantee that at some point one or both of us will want to get out.
But I also guarantee that if I don't ask you to be mine, I'll regret it for the rest of my life.
Because I know in my heart -- you're the only one for me."
--- "Runaway Bride"
I remember I watched this movie in an English lesson in college.
It can not be called as a superb film, but these lines deeply touched me.
I saw myself in this film, a girl who has fear and feel confused about love, a girl who always wants to runaway.
Now the little girl has grown up. I understand that love is unconditional, inconvenient and consuming.
Whereas, I am not going to anywhere anymore.
I am right here and waiting.
But where are you? December 16 Merry XmasChristmas time is the happy time! ~ Thanks for J’s big beautiful Christmas pack! You know I am a present peeker, so I opened it... Thanks for the Xmas hat, stocking, KISSES, and "a warm hug on a cold day", especially the "Made in China" sweater and scarf… The poor swear and scarf went across twice of the Ocean to get to North China from South. What a journey！It made me laugh over and over… Thanks again for putting my name on Santa's list. This is the first time I have received gift from him. This is the biggest chocolate I have ever got. And this is the warmest Christmas I have ever had. Thanks for everything… My Mr. Big didn't show up at the end…But I couldn't always dwell on the past, time to move on. 2009 is the Ox's year. It is my year. Although the tradition says the people in their year will under bad luck. But I am still looking for it. Anyway, it can't be worse than now. Only when you are not afraid of anything, then you will go further. At last, to whom it may concern, I love you, and I will let you do whatever you think it matters. But someday, someday when we have any chance to talk, tell me why I am always the one who has been left behind… Why the person who said he will never left my in dark, left me in dark; who said I am the person he will never hurt, hurt me the most... Tell me what happened…Tell me how the affection fades off… Merry Christmas and Wish you all the best! December 15 Shall we dance?If I am totally be honest to myself, I think I'd rather die in knowing that I was good at something that I had excelled in some way, than just being a nice and caring relationship. I always feel the pressure of being a strong and independent woman, but making my whole life revolving around some guy… But loving someone and being loved means so much to me. I always make fun of this, but isn't everything we do in life is waiting to be loved a little more. I had worked for this old man and once he told me that, he was spent all his life think about his career and his work. When he was 52, he suddenly realized he hasn't ever given anything of himself. His life is for no one and nothing. He's almost cry when saying that. You know I believe if there is any kind of God, he couldn't be anyone of us, not you or me, but just this little space in between. And if there is any kind of magic in this world, it must be the attempt of understand someone, share something. December 09 Rush to the Dead SummerMy 2008 is only about summer. The sunshine, the rain, the flat or rugged roads, the green or brown mountains, the sea, the temples, the luxury or crap hotels, the seven seats Buick, the white or blue uniform, the endless phone calls, the dance, the beers, the shrimp who jump out of the hot pot, the birthday cake on my face, the silence in the mourner for the earthquake and the cheer in opening ceremony of Beijing Olympic Games, the big party, the map with everyone’s best wishes written on it, the bird who named William, the five-in-row game, the rhythm of “Body and Soul”, the smell of black coffee, the bitter 85% cocoa chocolate, the ice creams, the warm soft and loud nights and all the laugh and tears…They consisted of my unique and indelible 2008. This is the year I finally took out the picture of Roc and me from my wallet, which has stayed there over five years. Finally, I let the past gone and feel released. This is the hardest year I have ever had, and also the best year. I have got to know a group of amazing people, participated in a great event, and met a great man. Even though I couldn’t have them all the way, at least they made my 2008 shinning than any others’. “Rush to the dead summer” is one of my favorite book. It told me a story about angels. “Everyone has an angel who will always watch her. If your angel felt that your life is too sorrow, your mood is too depressed, she will personate to somebody around you——maybe to be your friend, maybe your lover, maybe your family, or maybe just a passes-by. Because of them, your life has a fortunate memory. Even if the road ahead is full of brier, you can still be brave. Therefore, those who silently left us actually are the angels that went back to the heaven. Such as those friends who left you, those strangers who helped you and then left, those who loved you then get apart, they all were kind angels. Maybe for a time you will feel lost for their leaving, will search them all round. Time is the best pain-taker.” Summer ended, and winter comes. Angels went back to where they belong, and I survived form the dead summer… To all my angels, the one I am in love with, my friends, my family, everyone comes and goes and you, Marry Christmas! December 08 Home StoryThere is a over 15 years old couch at home. I always want to remove it.
Last time when I came home, I left some money for Mum to buy a new one.
This time when I got home, it is still there. So I am organizing to buy a new one by myself.
Dad strongly against it, even though I explained I will pay. But he thinks it is a waste of money, as normally there is no guest will come, and they are fine with the old furniture.
Later, Mum said something to Dad, and Dad suddenly become very happy and agree to have a new couch.
......
So, since yesterday afternoon, the main topic in the house is that when I will bring my boyfriend home soon.
I told them I don't have one. And they said, I am almost 24 years old. I should find a boyfriend and get married in one or two years time..
They suggested me to stay at home, find a work in Xiaogan, and then they can introduce some good boy to me...
Huhu... Maybe it is not a good idea to be home..
J laughed over and over about this little story, and then he asked me, "who will be the man that first to sit on the new couch ? "
Well... this is the moment I found my face is wet. December 05 Spectre“Life has awful pause and wonderful starts.” an old friend told me so, before I had the long long night of my life pause. I lost most of my friends in the certain time because of the man I deeply in love with; I spent the money I don’t have because I have trusted a man who I should not trust; I lost my faith of love because my beloved turned his back to me in the end… At that night, the illness took me to Spectre Town. It a very beautiful place, with blue sky, green grass, clear water and fresh air. The birds are singing in the tree; fish are dancing in the river; sheep are enjoying their meal on the grass… I lay down on the grass with my hands under my head. My dearest dog CoCo is playing with a butterfly around me. And then I see my brother walk towards me… Finally, I meet him. Finally, I get to the place where I belong to -- the place I suppose to stay in. My brother should be the only child in my family, but he left before he really sees the world. He left everything to me… Anyway, I am so happy that I could end up in Spectre with him. I was imaging his image in all my life. I always want to have him grow up with me. So he would protect me, whenever and wherever; he would hold my hands when I am weak; he would trust me when others don’t; he would put a smile on my face when I cry.. I finally get here and I am extremely happy that I did it! …… I open my eyes and see the daylight. Nothing changed in my real world. But I am not afraid of anything anymore. Because I know I will end up in Spectre, warm, soft, peaceful, with my brother and my CoCo. December 04 Big FishI have heard about this film long time ago. But because the China Film Corp thinks the war section in the film humiliated Chinese people, it hasn't been on show in mainland. Anyway, I watched it online later on.
This movie tought me a lot.
"The more difficult something is, the more rewarding it is in the end." And when Edward did get to Spectre Town, he decided to leave at the night. "the town is more than any man could ask for.", he said,"And if I were to end up here. I would consider myself lucky. But the truth is, I'm just not ready to end up anywhere.", "But no one's ever left", "How are you gonna make it without your shoes?"people asked, "Well, I suspect it will hurt, a lot." Before Edward left, Jenny went up and said, "Promise me you'll come back.", "I promise, someday, when I'm really supposed." Edward didn't expect a better place and he didn't go back to Spectre ever after. The charming part of life is, you never know what you are going to experience and have. Actually, there is no better place. "Better" comes from comparing with the worse situation. So, I welcome the difficulties and hurts in my life. I know they are going to make my life "better".
"How old are you?" Jenny asked,
"Eighteen."
"I am 8. That means when I am 18, you will be 28. And when I am 28, you will only be 38."
"You are pretty good at arithmetic."
"And when I'm 38, you'll be 48. That's not much difference at all."
"Sure is a lot now, though, huh?"
Well, I don't know how to end up the story.
True to form, we never talk about not talking. We are like strangers who knew each other very well. December 03 The Power of DreamMy first English teacher brought Celine Dion and her music to me in my college time. I think she is a very powerful woman with a touching voice. She has a strong passion towards life and love. Her first concert in China took place in Beijing in April. As it was the time when the Beijing Olympic Games are approaching and there are a lot political issues against Beijing and the whole China, she has been asked about her opinion about Beiijing Olympic Games during the interview. Her answer is very impressive. She said this game belongs to Beijing and everyone in the world. The game is not for the politicians selling their political view or for the business man selling their products, it is about the young kids, who come from every country of the world, and they are giving their life to achieve their dreams. So let's prey for them; let's cheer for them; let's be proud of them; and let's provide a peaceful and beautiful stage for them... This is Olympic. And I believe Beijing can do it. It reminds me her song "The Power of Dream". "The power of dream" and "The Power of Love" are two of my favorite songs. These are two very powerful songs. They accompanied with me during my school life. It is love and dream brings me here. "Your mind will take you far "cause I am your lady |
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